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"What
have you been doing?" I inquired.
He laughed.
"There, now, God bliss her," he said. "I put
a rib in an umbrella for her, but she said the house was too
dirty to read the Bible in, so she let me read it through
the broken window."
All that
winter he tinkered and taught. All winter the little ragged
audiences gathered around him in the morning; and often at
eventime when he retreated into a quiet corner to be silent
and rest, he found himself the centre of an inquiring group
of his fellow-lodgers.
Instead
of uniting himself to the mission, as such men usually do
after their conversion, I advised him to join one of the prominent
churches of the city, in the downtown district. I thought
it would be good for the church. But we both discovered our
mistake later. He was utterly out of keeping with his surroundings.
The church he joined was an institution for the favoured few—and
Dowling was a tinker.
His diary
of that period is before me as I write, and I am astonished
at the great humility of this simple-minded man.
He had
been asked by the minister of his church to call on him; but
his modesty prevented him until hunger forced him to change
his mind. After starving for three days, he made up his mind
to accept that invitation, and reveal his condition to the
well-to-do minister of this well-to-do church. He was poorly
clad. It was a very cold winter day. The streets were covered
with slush and snow. On his way he met an old woman with a
shawl around her, a bedraggled dress and wet feet.
"My
good woman," said Dowling, "you must be very cold,
indeed, in this condition."
"Sir,"
she answered, "I am cold; but I am also starving of hunger.
Could you afford me one cent to get some bread?"
"God
bliss ye, dear friend," he said, "I have not been
able to taste food for three days myself; but I am now on
the way to the house of a good friend, a good servant of the
Lord; and if I get any help, I will share it with you. I am
a poor tinker, but work has been very slack this last week.
I have not earned enough to pay for my lodging."
The diary
gives all the details, the corner of the street where he met
her, the hour of the day.
A servant
ushered him into the parlour of his "good friend, the
servant of the Lord." Presently the reverend doctor came
down, somewhat irritated, and, without shaking hands, said:
"Dowling,
I know I have asked you several times to call, but I am a
very busy man and you should have let me know. I simply cannot
see you this morning. I have an address to prepare for the
opening of a mission and I haven't the time."
"No
handshake—no Christian greeting," records the tinker's
diary; and the account closes with these words: "Dear
Lord, do not let the demon of uncharitableness enter into
my poor heart."
He became
a colporteur [itinerant seller or giver
of books, especially religious literature.] for a tract
society, and was given as territory the towns on the east
side of the Hudson River. Tract selling in this generation
is probably the most thankless, profitless work that any human
being could undertake. The poor old man was burdened with
a heavy bundle of the worst literary trash of a religious
kind ever put out of a publishing house. He was to get twenty-five
per cent. on the sales; so he shouldered his kit, with his
heart full of enthusiasm, and began the summer journey on
foot. He carried his diary with him, and although the entries
are very brief, they are to the point.
"August
29. Sold nothing. No money for bread or lodging. God is good.
Night came and I was so tired and hungry. I went into a grove
and with a prayer of confidence on my lips, I went to sleep.
A clock not far away struck two. Then, rain fell in torrents
and a fierce wind blew. The elements drove me from the grove.
A constable held me up. 'I am a servant of God, dear friend,'
I said. 'Why doesn't he give you a place to sleep, then?'
he answered. 'God forgive me,' thinks I to myself, 'but that
is the same unworthy thought that was in my own mind.' I went
into a building in course of erection and lay down on some
planks; but I was too wet to sleep."
Next day
hunger drove him to work early. He was turned from one door
after another, by saints and sinners alike, until finally
he was so weak with hunger that he could scarcely walk. Then
he became desperate to a degree, and his diary records a call
on another reverend doctor.
This eminent
divine had no need for religious literature, nor had he time
to be bothered with beggars. Dowling records in his diary
that he told the minister that he was dropping off his feet
with hunger and would be thankful for a little bread and a
glass of water. It seems almost incredible that in a Christian
community such things could happen; but the diary records
the indictment that those tender lips in life were never allowed
to utter—it records how he was driven from the door.
He had
letters of introduction from this rich tract society, and
again he presented them to a minister.
"A
very nice lady came," says the record. "I gave my
credentials, explained my condition and implored help.
"We
are retired from the active ministry," the woman said,
"and cannot help you. We have no further use for religious
books."
A third
minister atoned for the others, and made a purchase. This
was at Tarrytown. On another occasion, when his vitality had
ebbed low through hunger and exposure, he was sitting on the
roadside when a labourer said, "There is a nigger down
the road here who keeps a saloon. He hasn't got no religion,
but he wants some. Ye'd better look him up." And he did.
The Negro saloon-keeper informed him that being a saloon-keeper
shut him and his family from the church.
"Now,"
he said, "I am going to get Jim, my barkeeper, to look
after the joint while I take you home to talk to me and my
family about God." So they entertained the tinker-preacher,
and the diary is full of praise to God for his new-found friends.
The Negro bought a dollar's worth of tracts, and persuaded
the colporteur to spend the night with them.
With this
dollar he returned to New York, got his tinker's budget, and
went back to his missionary field. If people did not want
their souls cured he knew they must have lots of tinware that
needed mending; so he combined the work of curing souls with
the mending of umbrellas and kitchen utensils, and his period
of starvation was past. His business was to preach the new
vision and tinker for a living as he went along.
"September
12," reads the diary, "I found myself by the brook
which runs east of the mountain. I had a loaf of bread and
some cheese, and with a tin cup I helped myself to the water
of the brook. The fragments that remained I put in a bundle
and tied to the branch of a tree by the roadside. On the wrapper
I pencilled these words: 'Friend—if you come across
this food and you need it, do not hesitate to eat it; but
if you don't need it, leave it for I will return at the close
of the day. God bless you.'"
At eventime
he returned and was surprised at the altered shape of the
bundle. He found that two beef sandwiches and two big apples
had been added, with this note: "Friend: accept these
by way of variety. Peace to thee!" This gives occasion
for another address of prayer and gratitude to God for His
bountiful care. By the brookside he took supper, and then
began the ascent of the hill. After a few hours fruitless
search for the road, he "got stuck," in the words
of the diary. Finding himself in a helpless predicament, he
gathered grass and dry leaves around him and prepared himself
for the night.
"Psalms
IV. 8 came to my mind," he said, "and I took great
comfort in the words—'I said, I will both lay me down
in peace and sleep, for Thou, Lord, makest me dwell in safety!'"
He woke
next morning and found the earth covered with hoar frost,
which suggested to him: "Purge me with hyssop and I shall
be clean. Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow."...
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